I've had my share of rocky relationships but sadly, I realized that my worst one is the relationship that I cannot sever, it's a bloodline.
I discovered this during one of those long drives, the ones that let my subconscious mind take the wheel (safely, I have to add!) and my conscious mind just starts whirring away at the thoughts that pop into my head at random.
I was thinking about how the words we speak has the power of building people up or tearing people down. We really should mind the precious time we spend with the people around us. There's no denying how impactful positive people are when you are surrounded by them. You bond, get support and most importantly get help to thrive in this very difficult life.
But then there are the people who berate you, mock you and put you down. These are the individuals that are naturally incline to be grumpy at the world so they're grumpy at you. I use to have friends who would join the same activities after school as I did just so they could prove they were better than me.
And people wonder why I only keep in touch with a couple of friends since highschool. Pfft!
I still have people that are gifted at finding ways to see the negative at every good thing that happens to me.
New promotion? "You'll have to spend more time at the office now"
Weight loss? "There is no way you can keep this up"
New purse? "Someone is definitely going to steal that from you"
Not only do I have a negative Nancy that I can't get rid of, I find myself thinking of ways to please this person. I keep spending time planning on ways to make this person happy, to buy something as a gift, to please this person.
Why are we destined to be like that dog who yelps in pain when their master kicks them in the ribs yet the very next second we're sitting at their feet, begging for attention, begging for scraps of love?
This makes me depressed.
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