It's a hard life

It's been 2 months since my last post and I know I don't owe anyone an explanation. But I think I need to publish an explanation to myself.


It's been a hard life, these past two months.


The flirtation with depression was dangerous and while I'm not completely out of the danger zone, I recognize that I needed to prioritize this. Forcing myself to update this page was not as important as mental health.


Family life has been hard and difficult. While these relationships can be so rewarding, sometimes the process of growing closer is so painful. It takes a toll.


I'll be better, I promise.
But for now, I'm going to make sure that I'm okay and that breathing is no longer difficult. I need to stop being so hard on myself and setting standards can only set me up for failure. The pain for defeat can be too much to bear at this moment in this season.

I'll be better, I promise.
I'll pick myself up, dust myself off and slowly progress to the fifth gear (manual transmission analogy can be so comforting). I'll be back to my usual, positive, energetic, highly motivated self.

I'll be better, I promise.
I just need to heal a little bit.